Here is an awesome shot by Steen for my upcoming website….

I had an amazing shoot last week with Mark Davis. John Fitgerald captured it on video and Steen was kind enough to capture frozen moments with her camera.

Had a wonderful day today! Got up early, ran late to set, got done early and had an amazing time with Mark Davis, who has worked with me on SexAndSubmission.com for Kink.com. We got to get down without rope or whips today and it was amazing. I’m still a bit spun. I’m very excited about the launch of my paysite. Shooting with all of my favorite people in order to get content has been such an experience in and of itself.

Although the shoot today was all about me being a femme fatale being a completely dirty girl, it was certainly very D/s based. I’ve never interacted with Mr. Davis any other way. I reflected on that afterwards. I suppose I could’ve been mouthier or played a character or whatever, but there was a reason it wasn’t scripted.

I believe that we got some amazing footage and intense photos and can’t wait to see both. I went from glam to smeared eyeliner in two seconds. There were no bdsm accessories but it was just as intense as SAS. Having TMS and Steen right there was awesome and a little awkward, but that’s why I wanted Mr. Davis there so I could just focus on him.

Directing and subbing at the same time is really hard. Not as hard as subbing and topping at the same time, but difficult. All I can really do is put the best people I know together at the same time and then go with it. Working with people I really like, trust and that know what they’re doing is my formula and I think that it’s working.

And in case I haven’t mentioned it before, Mark Davis is my favorite dude porn star ever. Ridiculous. I’m not sure if it’s the accent or that he’s confident enough to pick me up by the throat. Either way, I hope I can get him a lot for the site. Because I am a twisted individual, I can’t wait until I can get him to fuck my friends for my site.

Steen and TMS both said that they didn’t perv out at all during the shoot, which sort of dissapointed me. I’ve totally perved out at shoots. I’ve perved out with other people at shoots.  Do I get a gold star for that? Isn’t that why you’re reading this blog? Because I perv out? And will talk about it, actually do it and take photos/videos of it?  Talk to me!! Why are you here, Faithful Reader? Am I funny, am I hot, do you like the LOLCats? I certainly haven’t been putting up enough free porno lately, and haven’t been very good about updating my Clip Store. I guess I’m just anticipating putting all the pieces in place for my site.

K. Gonna recoup so I can go beat the boys that are bad with Nikki Hunter in the morning. My life, on the whole, is pretty bad ass.

Matt got me! Here is a bts photo by Steen. Enjoy.

Wow. What a busy weekend! TMS and I spent Saturday napping and intending to watch Dr Who. I headed over to The Ivy Manor in the early evening to visit with Isabella Sinclaire regarding some exciting plans she has for the future of The Ivy Manor. In addition, I solidified some plans for my next few films, my trip to Europe and decided to start taking private sessions.

My shoot with Dia was far too fun and far too short. I did suspend her and she said it was comfortable, so I’m happy with that. I’ve threatened Ken with coming over and tying up models in front of his camera ad nauseum and he didn’t throw anything at me or run, so perhaps I’ll have some examples of my rigging soon.

Here is a picture of Dia’s ass after I was through with it. She sent this to me from her cell phone.

I went out in my custom Military suit from Fierce Cotoure to my friends’ dance party. It turned quite a few heads! I knew I might be a little overdressed, but it turned out to be overkill.

Busy, busy.

Today I’m doing my nails and working on sorting stuff out for my trip to London as well as working on my website text. I’m very excited about getting my website going and sharing all of the exclusive content I’ve been shooting with my favorite kinksters! It feels really good to produce and direct my own material and I can’t wait to share it with y’all.

Tomorrow I tango with the incomparable Chad Rock. The theme of the shoot is CBT, and as Faithful Readers will know, I play with Chad on my terms. Tomorrow is going to be awesome. I’m trying to get him to stop by the house today. I’m looking forward to engaging in some stress positions with no rope. I know that Mr. Rock loves a challenge, and I want to give him a fun run for his money. I have no cattle prod and I’m over shocking peoples’ fillings so he doesn’t have to worry about that, at least.  *haha*

Matt Smith is supposed to call me sometime today. I want to touch up my hair and hop in the shower, and have to run out and rent a P.O. Box later today. Hmmm. Maybe I’ll call him first. He wants to do a phone interview instead of a written interview. I just don’t want to get taken out of context. I would really like the opportunity to explain my take on his article, so it’s a chance I’m gonna take.

In porno news,  Christine Kessler has put up the photo shoot we did featuring my smallest corset cinched all the way on Zivity! She calls it “Tiny Green”.  Please go check out Zivity and sign up! You get one free vote for signing up and they don’t spam you. C’mon, give it a go.  I didn’t win a bondage award and it broke my heart. Shattered my self esteem. Please up my self-popularity perception. J/K.

Zivity is actually a rather groovy site where you can vote for and view photosets of your favorite models including Darenzia, Angela Ryan, Emily Marilyn…

K. Got to get on it.

L8TR

Wow. Life really came at me fast today! I’ve been moving and shaking since I woke up and it feels like there’s no end in site, even though it’s almost 1 am!! I’m still doing laundry, and did quite a bit of rearranging around the house. Bought more shoe storage. I’ve almost got it under control. Almost.
Also worked in the garden. I’m tearing everything out and starting over. I want pretty flowers and ground cover. Right now it’s lots of sea grass. Boring.
Went over to Steens this afternoon and observed Darenzia recovering. We ate cupcakes and watched Pootie Tang.
“You can’t beat a ho! They like that shit!!”
Classic.
I’m working on lots of rad content, with the likes of January Seraph, Satine Phoenix and lots of dirty boys who need to be beaten. In the meantime, here’s a pic from Danni.com
Enjoy!!

Please go check out my clips for sale store. There’s awesome stuff in there, full of my hot friends including Jewell Marceau, Satine Phoenix, Eden Wells, January Seraph, Jade Indica, Natali Demore and plenty of others!

Buy my porn! I made it for you!

Later, gators-
TFFMB

Yesterday was so much fun! I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  worked with Caroline Pierce and Frank Towers on a silly swinger series they’re doing. It’s a really cool idea, and I can’t wait to see what it looks like. There were some awesome and unique shots that we stumbled across that I can’t wait to experiment with. Caroline Pierce is lotsa fun.
Grrr. I need one of my shoots to actually come together. The last two fall aparts have been discouraging, even though neither of them were my fault.
I have all of these ideas in my head and I want to get them on film.
Blah Blah Blah.
TMS stayed over last night. I got in after 10 and simply passed out. I was too tired to even eat dinner. Varla was happy with the alone time, though, and I suspect that TMS didn’t mind catching up on Dr. Who.
I did sleep in my collar, which was nice. Haven’t done that in a while. My custom collar from Axsmar. I wear my bracelet all the time, but sometimes the more traditional collar is nice.
So, that’s that.
I’m off to do bills and interwebs stuff.
L8TR

My god, Texas is huge. I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  have had enough Texas, thankyouverymuch. I have to go back later this year and I’m dreading it.
We broke down on the way out. My car had a seizure. The air conditioner stopped working. We pulled over. We got gas. I turned the car on and it had another seizure. A loud one. Then it died. Then I got quiet, smoked a cigarette, called my L.A. mechanic and told him I was broke the fuck down in Odessa Mother Fucking Texas and that if my car did not miraculously start at that moment that he was going to come get me.
Of course the car started right up and drove fine, minus the A/C.
The car is going in tomorrow. I am tired of getting it fixed, even though it’s for free. This happened with the Miata, too. They were always fixing it for free. I just want it to work. I do not want to fix the same things.
Applying for college this year. Looking at Humbolt State University. Hippies and such. A bit too much rain for me, but TMS likes the rain, and Arcata has anti-dog legislation and has voted to impeach Bush twice! My kind of town. And I’m still close enough to SF to jet around and get nekkid.
All is well in Louisana. Everyone and every thing just keeps on keepin’ on. It’s a war zone.
In More Surreal Shit That Seems To Make Up My Existance, my grandmother is part of a lawsuit that is suing the government over military deaths involving Area 51.
K. T. will be over in a bit. She’s bringing coffee. From the amount of laundry I have and the influx of reading material my work is cut out for me.
L8TR

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin have a houseguest! T. is in from London. So are her two small dogs. Their combined weight is less than Varla’s. BTW- Varla is a Maine Coon. It’s been confirmed by three independent parties. That’s why she is a monster cat with all that extra fur.
Varla hates the dogs. She doesn’t care if they are friendly or hostile. She doesn’t care that they just want to clean her and cuddle with her. She has identified them as The Enemy and is having none of them. She hisses, spits and hides.
And so it goes.
So, today is dyeing my hair, going to the AIM clinic, and then heading over to Angela’s for a mini photo shoot. T will probably go with me. We will make photo magic. Yay!!
This Friday I shoot for Venus Girls again, and Saturday I have a photo shoot.
The house is coming together. I got some dishes. T is all set up. Yay!!
TMS is spending the weekend. Yay!!
I can’t find two of my lingerie sets, which is starting to bother me more than a little.
Off to catch up on last nights’ news.
L8TR

Yay!! TMS hooked up the internet while I was gone. I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, am now In Contact.
In addition to AVN and moving this January, I just got back from a directing stint at The Twisted Factory. Since you can assume that I had fun at AVN, and that I totally dig my New To Me Craftsman Abode of Fabulocity, let’s get right to the shoots.
First of all, let me say that I was nervous about shooting with Lorelei. And what do I do when I’m nervous? I up the ante and put more pressure on myself. This resulted in a scene that was very different from any of the other Chanta’s Bitches shoots, or any shoot I’ve been involved in for that matter. Totally. Completely.
No rope.
None.
Nada.
This resulted in some precarious, painful and mobile ties for the lovely Lorelei Lee.
Did I mention that I’m totally in love with this chick? She giggles, she laughs, she is pokable and fuckable and the only thing I regret is not making out with her more. Lorelei is known for being a bad ass and having an awesome attitude. And in person she is even sexier than on camera. She glows, she moves with you, she connects.
*sigh*
And she was up for the shoot. I talked with her before hand about the concept and she was totally up for it. She’s a wonderful communicator and I hope to work with her again. I simply must.
Perhaps Chanta will be inspired and put us through the ringer together? Or one of my other beloved riggers will see the magic in that moment? ‘Allo Princess Donna?? Matt? Sabrina Fox?
Sabrina!
OMG!!
Mz Berlin, SabrinaFox,  and Lorelei Lee.
*blink*
So, my first shoot for Chanta’s Bitches went well.
And then there was Rico. The boy who doesn’t quit. He likes to call me the “B” word, and that doesn’t fly with me. But Rico never bites off more than he can chew, but he comes precariously close. His ability to bounce back even harder is unparalleled, though. I totally dig him, and hope to have one more go. This is a gonzo storyline shoot and I’m really proud of his performances. We’ll see if I got my points across after the editing is done, but I feel like Justin got a lot of cool shots and that the action is intense. INTENSE. I rarely do things to other people that haven’t been done to me, but Chanta gave me a wicked idea and I went with it.
My bondage was simple, and Rico can MOVE in bondage. I’ve been accused of being an unexpected wiggler, but Rico needs to be locked the fuck down.
I have a fucked up and simple idea for our next shoot, if there is one.
So, my Captive Male shoot went well.
I sort of know when I walk away from a shoot and it’s going to be crappy. There’s one with a horrible actor in which I didn’t really read the situation correctly and I’m not very confident about. He was a shit talker that couldn’t bear the consequences of his actions. So, I’m dreading seeing it.
These two, I feel fairly confident about. Chanta has already chatted with me about one thing that won’t fly, but it won’t happen again.
But I left each set without poring over the whole experience and reliving anything that didn’t meet my minds’ standards. That was nice.
There was also a lot of laughter on set. Lorelei and I had the giggles all day and Rico is one of the funniest people around, with all of his energy. That really helped. Familiarity may breed contempt, but it also seems to breed confidence in me.
So, that’s that. I am now home.
And still unpacking. I went to the grocery store today and filled up my (My!!) fridge. I have fruit in the fruit drawer. It’s nice.
Justin may be coming into town tonight with his ex girlfriend. That should keep me amused.
Until then, adios!!! BUY MY PORN! I made it for you!

I lied.  (The Fabulous Mz Berlin lies on occasion)
I’m going to be moving and I want to share my photos in case I’m offline for a couple of days or something.
And I just went through all my emails and downloaded them.
TMS still has to send me the ones from the big camera, but here are the ones I have from Day 1 on the floor. Enjoy!

Let’s get my unrelenting narcissism out of the way. Here I am in front of a 30 foot me!! (below) I am very excited. People wouldn’t get out of the way so I could get a decent picture, but whatever. I’m just happy I got to see myself in one of my favorite pieces that big! Yay! My smile is totally dorky but whatever. Charlotte Vales’ dude got some photos of it when the floor was empty, so maybe I can talk him into sending them to me.

But before I got to the floor I ran into one of my favorite bad girls, Jewell Marceau. Jewell and I are friends IRL and can create quite a commotion. Our rendevous at the bar was no exception. We have some hot stuff in my clip store.

As an aside, all of my lingerie is from Kiss Me Deadly via the lovely folks over at La Magia, and my awesome corset is from Jeroen, at Bizarre Design.

And let me just say that I adore Nina Hartley. I wear corsets just so she can see me in them. She smiles really big. Here is proof.

When I am near Satine Phoenix I make porno faces and act kind of awkward. She always looks bad ass. Satine has a fluidity about her sexuality, sensuality and sense of style that I admire. That’s why I get awkward. And just grab her boobs.

After grabbing Satines boob, being grinned at by Nina Hartley, getting smooches from Jewell and seeing myself bigger than myself, I was forced to fist a Love Doll (top pic) and to get lube all over the hershey’s kisses that she had apparently given birth to earlier.
(Why would you put candy near the dolls’ ass? I got lube everywhere. It said that you could touch it, and they gave me lube.)

As an aside, I think I have lipstick on my teeth.

So, that’s that.
K.
Gonna pack some more and commune with Keith Olberman.
I love him.
Anderson Cooper may be a tad more attractive, but Keith doesn’t smack of elitism.
But I’d still get it on with either of them.
Anderson has gotten a bit to snide for me lately. I think he needs to hang out with Rachael Maddow a bit.
L8TR

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  wore my beautiful Wasp Creations (waspcreations.com) corset and my favorite white dress and TMS wore his cufflinks that I got him for his birthday and we met up for drinks with friends and ended up at a castle, high (and I mean really) above the city in a gazebo festooned with tiny xmas lights. (Yes, I said festooned.)
Angela and Matti looked rocker/goth beautiful and my neighbor was rather racy. Satine (Phoenix) was also nearly naked. Only one person in the group wasn’t exactly on board, but we all had a lovely night. My New Year has certainly started off well, and with kisses from those near and dear. I was very graceful stumbler near the end of the night. And I never took off my corset or my heels.
Monday I head up to SF. I have been summoned by Lochai, for better or for worse, to model for Hogtied. I have promised him a “bring it on” shoot. What does that mean? Where am I going? Who am I?
Then there’s AVN. AVN = dress up + party = woot woot
I am fo sho attending and am looking to be seen. In addition to wearing the awesome stuff made by Jeroen at Bizarre Designs and Fierce Coutoure, I will also have some fun promo stuff from La Magia, which is where I get all of my fancy panties!! I haven’t gotten my ticket to the convention yet, but just like last year you can be sure of one thing! I will be at the Sweetheart Video party at Mandalay Bay and anywhere Satine Phoenix pops up. The famous Patron of The Tarts, including this one, Mark Spiegler, will be fine tuning my partying and visiting, as well.
Good times.
Packing my apartment has been slow going and steady. I guess that’s better than frantic.
Watched a biography on Nostradamus today. That was the pinnacle of my output.
Vacation ends tonight.

So, I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  don’t want to traumatize anyone, but I know that some of you are curious. About the LASIK, the whole first hand person thing.

Well- This is for you.

I got to the doctors office early. TMS drove me and I ate copious amounts of klonopin once I was all signed in and stuff.  Then I was taken to the back room. There were five chairs and each had a hairnet and a small bag of eyedrops and horrible sunglasses. I put my hairnet on. A dude came and got me and started dumping numbing solution in my eyes. Then he mapped my cornea  with a blue thing that sat on my eyeball itself. I didn’t feel that. It made a printout. Then he did the air balloon staring thing and looked at the inside of my eyeballs. Then we did the whole vision test as it corresponded to my original one. Then I was put back in the room. I sort of dug my hairnet. All of the ladies dutifully had theirs on, while the men hesitated. I told one of them to “suit up!” and he he did. The other dude did, as well. Then the lady called my name and said it was time for me to get zapped. My eyes were pretty numb, and I’d taken my klonopin, but was counting on their valium, as well. I said so and was given a pill. The lady handed it to me, along with a dixie cup of water. I took the valium, crunched it in my teeth to prove a point to no one, then swished with the water and told her I’d need 5 minutes. They called in the lady after me. She came out alive. My world got a little fuzzy while she was gone. I was shuffled into the operating room. I told the doctor that if he over shaved my corneas that I would hunt him down. He promised not to over shave and lose my cornea.  More numbing solution was dumped in my eye and off we went.
My head was balanced between the seat, and three soft pads. One at each temple and one on my forehead. He adjusted for a moment. He fed the machine my measurements and my printed out eyeball corneal scan. Then he dumped more solution in my eyeball and in one deft movement, during which I did not see or feel anything, he placed the Clockwork Orange eye clamp in. It was cool, cold, comforting in it’s durability and gentleness. It didn’t hurt, but I felt the temperature. More stuff was dumped in my eye. Someone complimented my pupils. My left eye was covered up with something black. He told me that I would feel pressure.
My remaining exposed and clamped open eyeball was covered with a black vacuum that happened to be eyeball shaped. I’m assuming they had night vision inside. The second it touched my eye, my world went black and I was thankful that I had been a bad ass with my valium crunching. I felt no pressure, only encompassing darkness.  I focused on breathing. Fractions of a second passed and then the whir of a the smallest bandsaw began. It probably lasted a little over a second and I’m happy that I was paralyzed by my eyeball bondage. The smallest noise. Then it was over. Done. Fast. No pain. He said my flap was beautiful and that there was no chance of flap loss. The suction was removed and with the deftest hands, he lifted the flap. It did not hurt. I was observing myself at this point. The laser was aimed at my eye. Everything was rinsed. All I could see out of my right eye once they placed the laser over me was the biggest night sky you’ve ever seen. Pitch black with red stars, spread out like the milky way. It was pretty rad. Then they double checked my measurements and made sure that the laser was correctly positioned and entered my coordinates (-4.75/-1.25, right eye) and the laser pulsed. There was a funny smell and a vacuum whir. Then another pulse. With each pulse the stars in the milky way moved closer together until they were almost all sort of centrally located. It was beautiful, but the vacuum was distracting.
My flap was put into place. I was rinsed and numbed and taped up with this wierd eye guard thing and then they did they other eye. Everything was the same except for the coordinates. I just observed that eye and the bandsaw didn’t distract me. I thought about its’ precison and nano and micro technology and thought about faith in science.
Each eye took less than three minutes.
I would recommend it to anyone, at this point.
But be sure to take your “azepam” medications with you, because they offer crapola.

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Hello, faithful readers.
(I will never get tired of saying that.)
I got an early xmas present today. An iPhone!!
(TMS wants clearer photos when I’m on set, I think.)
*woot woot*
It has a hot pink case. I will take photos soon. I want to do an entire iPhone photo set.
I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  will wear all hot pink.
*woot woot*
I spent today with TMS eating breakfast at the new Aroma in Hollywood, activating my iPhone, drooling over shoes at the Barneys’ CoOp at The Grove, and checking out the new Grand Nationals over on Melrose. They are really W I D E in the calf and have no lacing, but I put my name on the wait list on the moc croc penis heel boot. It is supposed to have some lacing and be a bit more fitted. I’ve always love the Grand Nationals, since a co-worker got a pair when I worked at The Pleasure Chest. Such an elegant shoe, but I really prefer a fitted calf.
Tomorrow is GwenMedia, Angela Warrick and Mr. John Fitzgerald. We have some product photos to take, and I have some custom clips that I’d like to do. In addition to photographing my new Bizarre Design Dress, my waspcreations.com corset and some cuffs from Axsmar and Dungeon Delights, I was pleasantly surprised by a last minute offer from Antiseptic Fashion to let me wear one of their corsets. The corset just happens to match my ruby Gucci slippers, which I’m getting ready to sell, so it will be nice to wear them one last time.
Tomorrow night is a date with TMS (who looks and acts remarkably like Mr. Fitzgerald- it spooks me a bit). If we get done with the shoot soon enough, we may go see Transporter 3. I like to support anything involving Jason Statham.
I’m working Wednesday and Thursday, one is a scene and the other is a boxcover shoot. I’m always excited about the former, but the latter sounds like fun! They’ve requested my La Magia specifically, which I thought was awesome.
So, that’s my story.
Also, Bob called today and is fine. He offered to come clean the blood up in my house, but I told him that it was fine. Then he offered to bring flowers, and I really hate flowers because they just die and stink, so I told him not to worry about that, either. Just if he ever found anyone bleeding to take them to the morphine. Pass it along, Bob.
It wasn’t just a Random Occurence. I’m happy that it had an ending.
K.
Ice Cream, News, Laundry, Pack for tomorrow, in that order.
Go.

PS- I have an iPhone!!!

PPS- TMS made me promise a million times that I won’t throw my iPhone no matter who is calling or not calling and no matter what my mother says. I am keeping my old phone just for throwing purposes.

Hello, faithful readers.
Sometimes I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  am overwhelmed by the surreality of my life and sometimes I embrace it. This week has been a bit of both.
Let me begin what is sure to be a long and pointless, but probably entertaining blog entry by saying that December is my least favorite month. I do, however, enjoy a nice fruitcake from Harry and David each December, which is what prevents me from jumping off of a bridge, dramatically, in a white dress, clinging to my books and poetry as I fade to black and white before I hit the water.
I have tried to escape December over the years by driving across the country, getting a corporate job, quitting a corporate job, flying across the international dateline, eating everything in sight and engaging in massive opiate intake. None have been wholly successful, although I do believe a combination of some may work in the future, if need be. I am working it out as I go.
This December I have decided Not to Ignore. I am working. I am cruising ahead. I am making lists of shit to do and crossing them off. I am making no radical decisions this holiday season. I have health insurance. My car insurance and student loans are paid far into the future. No crazy vacations.  I am pretending that it is January and all of my Christmas shopping is done. I’m having lasik three days before Christmas, which gives me an entirely different (and potentially life changing) reason to be all dramatic, and I will be expected by the Porno People to be out an about in the New Year as we ramp up to AVN.
Which is completely besides the point, but I’m happy to be trying a new thing this December. I’m going to get a lot of reading done. And hopefully continue to be productive on the web end of things. The time for a website has come.
Which is not the point of this blog.
So, back to me and my week and What Has Happened.
Let me tell you.

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Hey Y’all!!

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  read juliesimone ’s entry about the AVN awards this year and couldn’t be more excited!! And, of course, I had to go check out the list myself.
The movies I’m in that are up for nomination are-

Best All Girl Release-  Girls Kissing Girls by Sweetheart Video

Best BDSM Release-  Slavery, A Love Story directed by Julie Simone and distributed by Gwen Media (starring role)
Breaking Berlin by Julie Simone Productions (starring role)

Best FemDom Strap On Release-  The Violation of My Boyfriends Ass by White Ghetto Films (cover)

TMS is also up for an AVN Award in the Best BDSM release for Ivy Manor 5 and the Ivy Manor series is up for best series. Yay!!

So, I don’t know if I win an award for being in the movie if it wins or not, but I certainly hope that one of them does take home the prize, and that they give me one. Isn’t that silly? All of my friends have AVN awards, and they’re very shiny. I like shiny. I called someone to ask, but he is out of the country.  If you know, please post or PM me.

K. Work in the morning. I over-napped today. I refuse to stop fucking up my sleep schedule. Maybe tomorrow will get me back on track. I’m going to try to be up at 6:30. (Hi. God here. She will not awaken at 6:30 for she is laaaaaaaaaazy and bad)

We shall see.

I, the Fabulous Mz Berlin,  was about to head out the door this morning when my dad called. We ended up talking for two hours about the election and what it meant on a personal, national and global level. I rarely get to chat politics with anyone, and my dad keeps up with me and occasionally blows me away with his predictions and insights.
He talked about being in school when desegregation began, and how even though it was mandated, the students kept segregating themselves. I told him that it was exactly the same (a self-segregated population) when I attended that very same high school, when I walked those very same halls and ate in that lunch room. We both wondered if the lunch room there was different this week.
Having a mulit-racial president is exciting on so many levels.
I just hope that he keeps that “hope” momentum through the tough times ahead.
I’d hate to see this historic moment and presidency fucked up by the shitty “in” box he’s getting. And the fact that our nation has a long way to go before we will really see the Change that he’s talked about during this campaign. I hope that the human condition of impatience doesn’t get in the way of our long term success as a nation.
Then we talked about the financial crisis, which is one of our favorite subjects to agree upon loudly together.
Then we talked about China and Russia and Africa and all of the different challenges that the president elect will face. (I didn’t mention the middle east in that list, because he and I have talked that subject to death.)
A few more phone calls, set up a few shoots, then I was off to AIM and the bank. Most of my work this week has been payroll based, so I’m waiting for my checks to come in.
Paid my bills.
Off to the dr in about 1/2 an hour, then hopefully I’ll be going to see a movie tonight. Word from TMS is that it’s really busy at his office, so we’ll see. If not, Netflix delivered “River’s Edge” (with Crispin Glover!!), “Life in the Undergrowth” (5 freakin’ hours!!) and “Leatherheads.”  I hate George Clooney in everything except for “The Perfect Storm” and that had nothing to do with him. I just thought the story was compelling. I’m not sure why I listed that.
Shooting with Derrick Pierce again for Fucked and Bound (fuckedandbound.com) was AWESOME. I was on the sassier side of sassy, and was certainly put into check. Haha!! I wore some custom shoes and my prettiest red dress. I love working at The Factory.
K.
Democracy Now podcast, then Dr.

Good morning!
Last night I went to an awesome party at Social in Hollywood. I got to walk my first porno rope line, which was exciting. Myself, Natalie Minx, Charlotte Vale and Evie Delatasso all hung out for a bit. (We’re all Spiegler girls!!) It was my first time meeting Evie, and she is cute, cute, cute. Natalie and I went together, and made quite a scene in our fetish wear! I got to visit with Nina Hartley and Claire Dames and I smacked each others’ boobies quite a bit. I’m sure we’ll get to work together one day, and that really will be the battle of the boobies! Haha!!
TMS brought me breakfast this morning. He only had a few moments because he has football today, but it was nice to visit and talk about our respective busy weeks. We have a couple more busy weeks ahead, and these moments are precious.
Now I’m about to watch The Soup, enjoy my oatmeal, my chai and then I’m getting ready for a shoot at a friends’ house with Ancilla Tilia and Christine Kessler. All heavy rubber and corsets and heels and fetish. I’m excited. I’ve been doing a lot of hardcore lately, and an afternoon of slick pure fetish sounds fabulous.
Did I mention there was a hot tub??
K.
Breakfast then shower.
Go.

I’m seeing that creepy Tom Cruise website ad everywhere again.
The laundry is done, dude. (It is not done)
TMS stayed over. We watched the last debate (he hadn’t seen it) and visited. Today was a trip to Target and he’s off to work on a personal project further up the coast.
I found out I could get my daily Anderson Cooper fix via a video podcast. iTunes is amazing. I also got the BBC World News.
Here is a pretty photo from a recent shoot for Chanta’s Bitches, one of the Twisted Factory sites.

I am in the middle of teaching Charley Chase a lesson with bondage and my strap on. Business as usual. But I just love how unposed this was. I can be a bit too “posey” sometimes.

*canned applause here*

Whew!! Just spent two days working with Brazzers. Day one was Regan Reese and Jordan Ashe and day two was Mark Woods. Both scenes were on the sillier side of things, but I got to dress up in some over the top outfits and play fun characters. The crew was really nice and, overall, it was a pretty chill two days. It was colder in Vegas than I was expecting, even though I’d been only a few days before.

TMS stayed over last night. He was here when I got home from the airport, catching up on Dexter. I have the first couple of seasons from iTunes. They haven’t released the 3rd season yet, so I’ve been watching it 2nd hand, grainy and uploaded to a site prone to pop up windows. There are worse problems to have. He’s gone off to play football and to prep for his film tomorrow. He’s directing a short and they have to do a day of pick ups.

and onto the porno…

(Go to my dirty bondage blog for direct linkage. I’m lazy.)

I’m this weeks update everywhere you want to be on the kinky side of the web. You can see my highly anticipated (at least by me) update with Mark Davis on Sex and Submission (sexandsubmission.com) in which I’m not only encased in my own 20.5″ corset but also in the custom steel that TMS had made for me. =). Marty pulled out all the stops and in addition to high heels, stockings, more metal bondage, stress positions, ballet boots and a partial suspension, I also squirt. Many have tried. Many have failed. Mark wins.

You can see my second appearance on FuckedAndBound with Derrick Pierce, also highly anticipated (also at least by myself). (I’m currently also petitioning for a round 2 with this fine gentleman.) Wrapped in Chanta’s tightest bondage, I’m stripped of my expensive lingerie and high heels. My red lipstick fades and my eyeliner runs as Derrick has fun with his willing victim. I’m put through my paces with my elbows together, douple nipple clamps, the cat-o-nine, an immobilizing tie and a painful suspension before being put away at The Factory in breast bondage and a tight ball gag.

Until I’m needed to beat bitches, bitches like Charley Chase. Dressed to kill, I teach her all about customer service utlizing a painful graduated suspension, an evil elbows together tie engineered by Chanta, positive reinforcement with lots of forced orgasms and exactly 120 face slaps. Theres a killer pile driver scene and Charley takes quite the ass beating. She also squirted, but I was not the first to ever make her do that. And she was a good girl. She stayed away from my shoes. =)

K.
Back to my Sunday.
I have Monday to worry about.
As Always
TFFMB

My new Kiss Me Deadly arrived today from LaMagia. I’m thrilled. It all fits perfectly. I can’t wait to get more.

Angela stopped by today. I was non-linear and she was patient. Good Times.

Finally got the chance to watch the presidential debate last night. I’m eagerly awaiting the vp debate tonight. I just wish that Anderson Cooper was moderating. Mr. Cooper, if you’re reading, I will let you do unspeakable things to me. TMS is fine with it. You’re on The List.

TMS stayed over last night. We had some nice quiet time, a precious commodity in both our lives. Varla certainly enjoyed it. She’s always flirting with him.

She does not flirt with Angela. Or Jessica. She likes Roxy. She tolerates Meow. She LOVES TMS. She loves Brandon J. Christopher.
She just doesn’t really like women. She’s a bitchy little French thing under all that beautiful fur.

In porno news, I’m this weeks’ update on Captive Male. Rico and I had a showdown like I’ve never had before. He said I was a bitch in the first 3 minutes of the video. It was awesome. Things came out of his mouth that were a dare, and I do love a challenge. Fortunately, so did Rico and his mouth didn’t write checks his ass couldn’t cash. I hope I get a second go round with him. It was “game on” from that moment. He told me he wasn’t sure i could bring it and threatened to shove an electrode in my ass while he was tied up in the most uncomfortable tie I could think of. Pure heaven.

Directing has helped me learn so much, and I love learning more. I learned a lot watching this video that I need to even my tone and find a balance. I’m honored to direct for Twisted Factory. Rico rocked, btw, and was amazing. I love when people “mean it”.

There will be an official announcement later on my awesome bondage blog, but awesome bondage blog, but Princess Donna’s new site, Public Disgrace, has launched. I adore Princess Donna and am very proud of her awesome idea brought to life. My only regret is not being able to participate before it was shot overseas. I love being at the Princess’ Mercy and will try to talk her into disgracing me even more in the future. God, I’m shameless.

Moving right along, tomorrow I am off to my first Drs appointment with my new insurance. I’m being checked out head to toe and am thrilled about it. All you medical fetishists can visit my clip store to imagine me in a medical setting and see me poking and prodding Ashley Renee in full heavy rubber. I’ll be uploading some heavy rubber medical clips later this month of Julie Simone and I in the Julie Simone production- Breaking Berlin. I am poked and prodded by Julie fully encased in rubber. I love being a switch.

The stencils and paint are on their way. I still haven’t found the perfect oilcloth yet. I am patient.

I’m off to finish laundry and shtuff.

KTHXBAI.