Wow. Crazy busy. The beat goes on and on and on.

My head has been in overdrive pondering the ongoing drama in San Francisco about the comparison of bondage porn with real torture. It has my mind spinning and I feel a little sick.

Melissa Farley, a woman I’ve never met and have only heard referenced twice, in articles focusing on a community that I don’t live in. My only connection to her subject matter is working at a company that she hates because of her own neo-feminist crazy ideology.  So, why is it getting to me? She is not ripping the porno down from the shelves in West Hollywood. She is not asking me, personally, to leave my kinky life in order to stop being a victim.

It is one of her many wacky conclusions that really gets to me.  And I’m having a very emotional reaction to it. It truly bothers me. It’s the conclusion that bdsm porn is in any way related to real life torture. Torture, as in it’s conventional sense. (Go ahead and pull up the Wikipedia page. I’ll wait.)

While Miss Farley has tons of education on me, and has probably interacted with far more sex workers than I have, and might even have good intentions with her comparisons and book burnings, I fundamentally disagree with her based on personal experience. I have worked as a bdsm porn model and I have also been subjected to torture, under the standard definition, while under arrest overseas.  My experience was short, intense,  and life-changing. I’m not going to go into the particulars of what happened, but the experiences are totally different.

I am quite certain of that.

I have journals, photos and paperwork chronicling how I was feeling and what was happening to me the entire time I was having my non consensual experience, and obviously other people were aware of and responding to the situation so I know that happened. There’s also a matter of public record. I (and You with your magical internet powers!) have my journal, interviews and pictures chronicling my bdsm adventures. I can track how a particular shoot made me feel, and can tell you the effect it had on me emotionally and physically.  The comparison of the two makes me sick. My nausea comes from the fact that torture is totally, completely, under any definition a non consensual act.

I don’t understand why Melissa Farley, and, by default, Matt Smith feel that it’s fair to compare the same act committed under completely different circumstances. Having to saw your hand off because it’s in a bear trap and a mountain lion is coming up the hill at a mighty quick pace and giving a kidney to your sister are a lot alike. They’re both major surgery.  They are both dangerous. They both result in the loss of a body part. It’s the context that brings it together. It’s circumstance.

So, there’s my rant and rationale. I’ve tried to keep it short. It’s personal. It’s professional. It’s a gray area as far as that goes. I don’t normally discuss personal stuff. I’ve touched on the non consensual experience in a few different forums as I processed what consent meant to me.  It’s at the core of how I compartmentalize the experience and it really (in the parlance of our time) pisses me off when someone puts the two together without thought. Not necessarily without thinking of me, obviously, but the circumstances surrounding each activity. And the charge that one word can have. And, unfortunately, what the difference between edgy porno/art film and a war crime is.

L8TR

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  was cruising around the internet the other day, minding my own business, when I came across Jade Indica getting nailed on Sex and Submission (sexandsubmission.com) bBy the amazing Mark Davis! Lucky her! In addition, Dia Zerva is also getting lovingly beaten by Mr. Davis. I’ve worked with both Jade and Dia. They are motherfuckin’ tough, and both love bondage and are very into the moment. I’m going to spend the rest of the day wearing out my Hitachi Magic Wand.

Also, you can catch Jade Indica in my kinky clip store!!

Yay!!

Wow. Life really came at me fast today! I’ve been moving and shaking since I woke up and it feels like there’s no end in site, even though it’s almost 1 am!! I’m still doing laundry, and did quite a bit of rearranging around the house. Bought more shoe storage. I’ve almost got it under control. Almost.
Also worked in the garden. I’m tearing everything out and starting over. I want pretty flowers and ground cover. Right now it’s lots of sea grass. Boring.
Went over to Steens this afternoon and observed Darenzia recovering. We ate cupcakes and watched Pootie Tang.
“You can’t beat a ho! They like that shit!!”
Classic.
I’m working on lots of rad content, with the likes of January Seraph, Satine Phoenix and lots of dirty boys who need to be beaten. In the meantime, here’s a pic from Danni.com
Enjoy!!

Please go check out my clips for sale store. There’s awesome stuff in there, full of my hot friends including Jewell Marceau, Satine Phoenix, Eden Wells, January Seraph, Jade Indica, Natali Demore and plenty of others!

Buy my porn! I made it for you!

Later, gators-
TFFMB

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, had a great shoot with Ian Rath, and Fetish Nation (fetishnation.com), and the lovely sub Bridgette, who got to watch me get fucked by this amazing fucking machine. Forced Orgasms is how they’re categorized, but I was 100% in support of cumming, with Bridgette gagged and powerless.  I love giving myself over to sensation, or to another Dom/me, if there’s a dub who has to watch. I throw myself into it, because that’s how I dominate them. Bridgette was dripping wet, to the point of shuddering, from watching me cum.  Fetish Nation has a TON of my shoots, and they’re all top quality. You’ll find all the big names in bondage and fetish models there.  Take a look, enjoy, and BUY MY PORN! I made it for you. Happy March.

It looks like I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  am trying to run from Lochai, while I’m midair. Haha!
(Yes, that is a full hair suspension.) It’s always a good time at Hogtied.

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OMG!! LOL!! I watched the latest Hogtied (hogtied.com) shoot starring moi, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  and it was totally awesome. I’ll begin at the beginning and go from there. Hogtied is a guaranteed trip, I tell ya.

The Hair Suspension- I can’t believe it happened! I wrote Lochai before the shoot and asked if it was a possibility and I guess he wanted to do it before I changed my mind. In general, that’s the best way to operate with me. I’d asked Claire Adams about it before, and she told me it was mostly mental, which was true. I do have a funny piece of BTS. Usually, on a set, as a model, you’ll be asked to put your weight into a suspension to see if it’s going to work. I was too much of a chicken to put my weight on my hair, and I told Lochai he’d just have to yank me up. I’m happy he did. It was surreal, to be lifted up by an extension of yourself. Not sure if that makes sense. (I LOVED it so much that I want to get a pic of me in my corset dress hung by my hair with my shoes tied to the floor, super stylized and creepy. It’s my new personal image fantasy.) Watching my feet dangle in mid air was really freaky about this particular scene. And I love when I’m so overwhelmed by physical stress that I can’t think. Awesome.

The Inverted No Wiggle Room Suspension- WTF? I couldn’t move an inch! I totally loved the flogging and am only confused as to why Lochai didn’t beat up my hoo hoo more. Everyone (yeah, I watch my own porn with my friends. We eat popcorn and stuff) was saying “Smack her pussy more!!” It was really tough, and once again I was totally overwhelmed. I didn’t have a clear recollection of the scene because it was another “out of my head” tie. I loved that the breast ties were functional and holding me in place. Did I mention this was a No Wiggle Room Tie?

Lazy Dom Zipper Mind Fuck- AACCCKKK!!! I could see it. I knew what was going to happen, but I was too fascinated to even try to get out of it. I always love when TomKat pops onto one of the sets I’ve been summoned to. Machines are the bomb dot com. Seeing it was the fucked up part. Totally fucked up. I really was genuinely scared by the idea of what was going to happen. I probably should’ve held off on my lasik ’til after this shoot. Haha! I do have to say, though, that I really liked the zipper. I would be totally freaked out to do it again, but I would still do it. I really loved being totally scared, and then it being totally over. It was a “boom” and then silence. My head was going a mile a minute, the button was depressed, and there was a long moment of quiet in my head. Lovely.

The Horrible, Awful, No Good Zip Ties- Those fuckers are mean. You move, they don’t. You wiggle, they dig in. I loved the finality of the plastic. I was stuck. The foot bondage felt amazing and even though it was “only” a hogtie, I felt extremely stressed. The asshook/hair combo is one of my faves, and was rather interesting combined with the zip ties. By the time I was in this position I think I had cum so much during the day that I was exhausted. Forced orgasms… yeah.

Did I mention that? That I was so overwhelmed by the bondage that I couldn’t NOT cum?

What a horrible job I have.

Not.

The only thing I didn’t like about the shoot was my lack of hair and makeup. I’m nearly nude!! But it was my own damn fault for being late. People have been requesting a minimal Berlin shoot, and there you have it.

There was not enough face slapping, but I’m sure if I’m mouthy enough that Lochai may remedy that. (A girl can dream, can’t she?)

Aside to Lochai- My dream has a kilt in it.

I did not count how many times I said “Fuck”, but I’d love to know. Wookie? Drinking Game 4 U??

Party On, Wayne!!

Party On, Garth!!

Shwing!!

And my non linear day continues. Go look at my porn, please.

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, am incensed that Lochai, the head of Hogtied (hogtied.com) and master shibari rigger, called me a BITCH (that’s right. All caps. Ima plant a cattle prod up that Joe Pesci motherfucker).  I did my first hair suspension for him. I did a guh-rate scene in this week’s Hogtied update, as you can see from the pictures. Lochai, Lochai, Lochai.. what am I going to do with you? Perhaps we need Wookie to mediate a peace. Honestly, this Hogtied shoot is one of the hottest bondage shoots I’ve done. Kink.com is one my two regular gigs, because I only work with the best. I’ll have more to day about Lochai’s poor choice of words, don’t you worry.

A few weeks ago Chanta gave me, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  a challenge and I challenged myself further.
Lorelei Lee is one of her prized girls, and lil Mz Berlin was given a go.
As usual, where there’s gas, I add fire. Tonight my update with the lovely Lorelei Lee goes up on Chanta’s Bitches (chantasbitches.com). It’s a non-rope bondage trial for both of us. There are a few things I would change, but not many. It was a fun day, all around and was a very authentic scene.  You got your enclosure and plastic wrap fetish. You got your forced orgasms, and your cattle prod induced electrical play. And of course, you have me making a beautiful and very submissive woman writhe and beg. Yep. It was a good day. Chanta’s Bitches is one of the best lezdom sites out there, and that’s because Chanta is such a perfectionist, and a professional, and an artist.
Enjoy!!

I, the Fabulous Mz Berlin, am multimedia. That’s right. I’m the first Web 2.0 star.  I keep it real. I make porn. You watch porn, and I want you to buy my porn. I made it for you, after all. In addition to my work with Twisted Factory and Kink.com, I have a Kinky Clip Store where you can get content you will not see anywhere else. In this five part series I made with Mina Meow, you see me reduce Mina to a quivering little slut. The fact that we’re real life friends makes it both easier and harder to break her. I know her limits, her fears, and her turn ons, but she know mine. You see a battle of wills as I tie her up, and punish her ass with the Stainless Steel Anal Hook, and finally shatter that resistance, and she shudders into the orgasm of  surrender. You can feel that in the scene, as I work my mad Domme skills to transcend the relationship we have most of the time, and impose the strict D/s dynamic. Her body responds quickly. I know she wants this, and she’s into it. She gives herself to the rope, and slaps, and harsh talk… and I win her over with my skill and my will. It’s not all about the forced orgasms, and rope… it’s a game. To break someone, to actually have them crumble into you, giving themselves to your will… that’s the magic. And that’s why you should go to my Clip Store and see my work.

So, here’s what I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin,  posted in the Kink.com forums. I’m tired and am getting in the bath and going to bed.
Lochai rocked it and was awesome. If he doesn’t have me back soon, I will cry and wither away. I need to be tied up. I went through a period last year where I did not want to be tied up, and now I do. So that’s that. Matt? Sabrina? Chanta? Princess Donna? Marty? Lochai? Eden? Do you hear me? Please tie me up a lot this year and be mean to me. I will be good and will attempt to be quiet.

And on with the post from another place-

The first hogtied shoot of 2009 went off without any hitches mostly, caused me to curse (!!!!!), involved ties that I’ve never done and a few that I didn’t think I could, one that I’ve only seen in photos, more authentic orgasms than any other shoot ever (anywhere!!!), a taste of my own medicine and a lazy dom contraption that you can’t even begin to fathom. Seriously. *raised eyebrow goes here*

In addition, I wore less makeup for this shoot than any other I’ve done. Which may not matter to you, but is notable to me. And was my own damn fault.

Because I can’t tell you exactly what happened during the shoot, because that wouldn’t give anyone incentive to petition the man in the jumpsuit to get the shoot published, I’ve decided to tell you why my reactions are worth petitioning for and the basics. It was mostly category 5, challenged the living daylights out of me and made me curse. I don’t think I’ve ever cursed in a shoot as a submissive/bottom/slave/whatever. Seriously. Maybe I’ve let a few go, but nothing on this level. It was ridiculous. I will also say that this particular update embodies the meaning of “helpless”.

I will also say that I’ve been tied up. A lot. By the best. I’m a spoiled bondage brat. And today I did three things that I’ve never done before and two that I didn’t know were even on the table for me. I was genuinely freaked out several times by the predicaments I was in. Which probably led to the whole orgasm thing.

In the future, I’d like more face slapping, but it wasn’t really appropriate ’cause I just had LASIK and the knocking out a cornea would suck. That’s my only complaint, and it’s a selfish one. And I didn’t really care about the cornea thing until I’d typed it and realized that it would’ve been a bad thing.

And you need to see the contraption. Because of my recent LASIK, I could see it. I’m not sure that was a good thing. Which is a good thing. It takes me quite a bit to get worked up, which is entertaining for you.

Which brings me to my point.

Please join me in asking Lochai to fast track this update because it’s super intense, all shot real time (the scenes, not the shoot), and because I’m curious to know how many times I dropped the “F” bomb.

Also, if this shoot is fast tracked it is guaranteed a Drunken Wookie Update. You know you love them.

Not much BTS to report. We got right down to business because I was a tad late in getting to The Armory, Lochai wears kilts IRL which is totally hot, I talked nonstop from the moment I walked in the door because I was so nervous, and the Princess Donna/Mark Davis shoot was going on next door. I offered my fluffing services (twice!) but they were not required. I didn’t really expect them to be, but it doesn’t hurt to ask. Twice. I also don’t think that Lochai was aware that when I’m working with someone that he has the right to gag me for the entire day. I hope that he will summon me again in spite of my verbosity. *raised eyebrow also goes here*

So, that’s that.

Over and Out.

Mz Berlin, the tired

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, would like to say farewell to 2008 with my third installment in my Chanta’s Bitches (chantasbitches.com) retrospective..  It’s from 2007, and features Chanta’s exquisite rigging binding my exquisite breasts. Of course Chanta has her way with me.  Notice the inflatable dildo that Chanta is using in the above pic.  I have written of my love for Twisted Factory, and Chanta Rose, and I will continue to ring that bell, because I love Chanta. You won’t find better femdom bondage anywhere. Her rope work is amazing, and her scenes are always compelling. Plus, she knows what to do with a bound girl. Chanta’s Bitches and Mz Berlin will be together for a long time to come. You’ll see more of my retrospective of Chanta’s Bitches, as 2009 begins. I have lots to show you! BUY MY PORN! I made it for you.

This is the second in my Chanta’s Bitches (chantasbitches.com) retrospective. It’s from November 2006, but I (The Fabulous Mz Berlin) can’t remember when it was shot. Look at the beautiful rigging! Chanta is so wonderful at rope bondage (shibari)! Now, you all know I have a problem with cattle prods. Well, this shoot was crazy intense, because it was very heavily into electrical play, with a TENS Unit and cattle prod  (available in my Fetish Toy Box)forcing orgasms from me at Chanta’s will. She has taught me so much about being a Domme, and you can watch my evolution as this retrospective comes along. In these early ones, I am submissive, and pretty good one at that. You get plenty of forced orgasms in this one.  Chanta’s Bitches is one of the best girl/girl femdom sites you’ll ever find, and Chanta Rose will never sacrifice the quality of her work, so you’re guaranteed a steady flow of top shelf bondage.  So, my dear friends, BUY MY PORN! I made it for you!

Happy Holidays, everyone!  I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, want to show you something really fucking hot. If you visit, as you should often, my Kinky Clips4Sale store (Clips4Sale.com) you will see a five part series of Mz Berlin in a lovely black catsuit, and waist cincher, and I am topping Mina Meow (who used to be the goth girl Arachnia Webb).  Mina and I are friends (like January Seraph and I are) and I really enjoyed having the freedom to do what I wanted with her. Trust is a must in this business, and friends tend make better bondage porn than strangers. My Kinky Clip Store has dozens of hot bondage and fetish clips, with me as both a submissive, and a domme. You’ll find something you like. How could you not like me? I’m fabulous! So, please BUY MY PORN! I made it for you!  As a teaser, I’m including the description of the first scene, for which to entice you from ur monies.

Before there was Miss Mina Meow, there was a girl named Arachnia Webb. I was lucky enough to have my first playdate with Miss Mina Meow right after she changed her hair, her look and name. But this isn’t any ordinary play date. This was set up by Fetish Nation, and is my shoot on my terms. I interview, taunt, tease, dominate, humiliate and spank Miss Meow in this clip. I’m dressed head to toe in a slick black latex cat suit and high heel boots, while Meow is also a latex lover’s dream in a spanking dress that I put to good use. And, as always, there was a reason. Meow had been griping about her phone bill and had bought a new pair of shoes for the shoot! I couldn’t believe it. She wanted rope bondage, but she would have to wait. I have a day of device bondage in store for her for that transgression.

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, had a great time topping the luscious Cherry Torn, for Chanta.  As I’ve written before I love working with Twisted Factory, and I think you will see that love in this scene from Chanta’s Bitches (chantasbitches.com). Sweet little Cherry Torn really takes to forced orgasms, and she eats pussy and licks ass like a top shelf submissive.  There is something about a girl who loves a ball gag, and nipple clamps. I tore this girl up, and she took it like a champ, and came a thousand times.  Chanta’s Bitches always always always delivers quality lezdom content, with the best girls in the business.  Enjoy.  Oh, yeah. BUY MY PORN! I made it for you!

Neither I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, nor Matt Williams can count.  I did four shoots for Hogtied (hogtied.com) this year, but if you look at the entry for the shoot, Matt (the former head of Hogtied, and current head of Ultimate Surrender) wrote that this was my fifth shoot for Hogtied. Tsk Tsk.  I am 4/5 of a person, hence the Dred Scott thing, but moreover, HOGTIED OWES ME A SHOOT!  Matt Williams was the first man to touch me on camera.  He has a place in my heart because I adore him, and trusted him enough to … well… I trust Matt enought to tie me to a rail by my tits and then attempt to lift me up with a hook. I mean, really, just look at the images.  I trust Matt enough to allow him to do that to me. That’s why my shoots with him are always super hot. I really get off, and I really get turned on with Matt. So, what’s this mean for you, Dear Reader? Simple. BUY MY PORN. The end.

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, have appeared on Hogtied (hogtied.com) more than any other girl this year, and I’m celebrating this with a Hogtied retrospective. Lochai, do you see this? Will you do this to me? Matt Williams did an amazing job with the rigging, including an inverse suspension, and some crazy ropework (look at the picture above. Now direct your gaze away from my perfect ass, and look at the rope. Isn’t it beautiful? The intricacy of shibari is intoxicating, both for the Dominant as well as the submissive. When I tie up my subs (don’t forget I’m a switch!) the focus required to rig properly, and artistically, is a kind of foreplay.  This bondage shoot was amazingly intense, with dildo fucking, forced orgasms, and plenty of different positions pushing my limits. I love working with Matt. He’s a true friend, and true artist, and a true Dom. I can’t wait to work with the man Matt hand picked to run Hogtied, Lochai.  Hurry up! Mz Berlin hates waiting! Oh, and don’t forget to BUY MY PORN! I made it for you!

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, have been on Hogtied (Hogtied.com) more than any other girl, in the last year. Kink.com has been very good to me, and I love working both for, and with them every time I have the chance. I’m doing a bit of a Hogtied retrospective to close out November. Why? Well, to sell my porn, of course! A girl’s got to eat, but also to showcase the great experiences I’ve had with Hogtied, and how I want to work with Lochai, please please please. I will probably work with him in January, but I want him to notice ME! Take a look at this shoot from September 2007. It was my first shoot for Hogtied, and I was nervous, but I think I brought it. Breast binding, a la shibari is perfect for a girl with big boobs! Take a look, and BUY MY PORN! I made it for you!

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, have a hard time drawing attention away from ME… but I’m biting down on a strip of leather, and sweating through it. Charley Chase is amazing in this scene from Hogtied (hogtied.com). Breast bondage, and big toes… nicely done, Matt.  Look at the picture above, and see how powerless she is.  That’s the pull.  To watch as Matt Williams places the black Hitachi Magic Wand on her clit, and she can’t do a thing to stop him, but squirm, and moan. It’s hot, I admit it. I’m going to close out November with a Hogtied retrospective, mainly featuring me, as I’ve been in more Hogtied shoots, this year,  than any other girl. That’s right, Lochai! Don’t you miss me?

FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE

HOGTIED.COM FEATURES PORN LEGEND KYLIE IRELAND

Adult Legend Submits to Tight Bondage and Forced Orgasms

SAN FRANCISCO (November 25, 2008) – Fans of bondage should give thanks this week, as bondage website Hogtied.com welcomes adult legend Kylie Ireland for her first appearance on the site in a hardcore bondage scene with Hogtied director Matt Williams.

“I’ve had a lot of people asking when I was going to come and do this,” said Ireland. “When I started mentioning it on my website and on my MySpace page, I got a lot of feedback. So I’m hoping everybody’ll dig it, and think it’s really cool — because I had a blast!”

Ireland decided to shoot with the San Francisco-based Kink.com, which produces Hogtied, due to her own interest in BDSM as well as at the urging of WiredPussy.com director Princess Donna and Kink.com regulars including Mark Davis and Derrick Pierce. “A lot of the stuff I direct is bondage related,” said Ireland, “and the girls will tell me what they’ve been doing up here; I’ve just been hearing so much about Kink.com.”

The Hogtied.com scene was Ireland’s first on-camera bondage experience, having been shot this summer just before her August appearance with Mark Davis on SexAndSubmission.com. In the 71-minute scene, Ireland submits to the hands of former site director Williams, who recently relinquished the directorial reins at Hogtied to Lochai, an award-winning fine art bondage photographer, educator and rigger.  In one of his last shoots as the site’s director, Williams made sure to give Ireland a memorable experience. After being bound, gagged, clamped, spanked, whipped, fingered, vibrated, and double-penetrated by enormous dildos, Ireland showed her appreciation with countless explosive orgasms, in keeping with her legendary abilities and star power.

Ireland burst onto the scene in 1994, winning AVN’s Best New Starlet award, back-to-back Fan Favorite FOXE awards, and being named one of Playboy’s top 10 porn stars for 1997. She was again honored by being listed by AVN among the top 50 porn stars of all time in 2001, and inducted into the AVN Hall of Fame in 2005. Now the veteran of over 400 adult movies as well as being a seasoned director, Ireland has also appeared in mainstream projects like Tales from the Crypt and Strange Days.

More information about Kylie Ireland can be found at www.KylieIreland.com and at her MySpace page, http://www.myspace.com/kylieireland,

ABOUT KINK.COM: San Francisco erotica studio Kink.com provides authentic fetish entertainment that seeks to demystify alternative sexualities and inspire sexual adventurers. Since the launch of its first site, Hogtied.com, in 1997, Kink.com has developed a network of premium adult sites that now operate from studios in the San Francisco Armory, a decommissioned National Guard facility with sets ranging from stark dungeons to luxurious pieds-à-terre. Kink.com also operates a free documentary site at BehindKink.com and the leading fetish affiliate network, KinkyDollars.com.

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, stayed up all night, working on updating my fetish clip store (clips4sale.com).  Among the amazing hotness, there is this great clip of a forced orgasm scene with myself (that’s the girl getting fucked by the machine, with the Hitachi Magic Wand on her clit, while Ian Rath pulls her nipples), beautiful fetish model Bridgette, and Mr Fetish Nation himself, Ian Rath, running the show. I think it’s one of my hotter clips, and you can get it… NOW…. in my Kinky Clip Store. I made it for you!