Latex by Demask. Makeup by the incomparable Julie Ehman. Captured by Gwen Media.

Yes, I know.
I should be hopping in the shower to get ready for my shoot with Dia Zerva. I know. But it’s much more fun to share this LOL cat with you.

And they make videos!!
That are funny!!

I’m so excited!
(And I can’t hide it! I’m just about to lose control and I think I like it…)
Working with Dia Zerva tomorrow. Gonna tie her up and smack her around a little. I hear she likes that kinda stuff. And I did give her my best slave, Chad Rock.
But he must not be tending to her very well, ’cause he’s made an appointment with me next week, here in L.A. We’re going to shoot downtown and I want all of LA to hear how much Chad adores me.
*evil laugh*
In other news, I’ve been summoned to The Armory by Matt to suffer for Device Bondage. I’ve never shot for the site before because I don’t really have an interest in bondage outside of rope, but Matt is irresistible. And I’m a sucker for irresistible.
So, fans of me in bondage, let Matt know what you want.
And if you want me to do something to Dia tomorrow, now is the time to let me know.
And if you want me to do something to Chad next week, let me know.
Over and out…

Wow! I logged on to my blog today and there were a gazillion comments! Well, not a gazillion, but I’m WAY closer to my 666 goal now.
And most of them were about the current torture debate.
Yes, I spoke with Matt Smith last week. We agreed to open up a public dialogue. He said that he would call me back this week and we would do a Q&A about the public perception of his piece and why I feel that it’s hit so many “hot” buttons because of his sources and wording.
He was very polite, if verbose, during our chat and I got the impression that he felt that he was being attacked because he wasn’t being PC. I told him that this was beyond that. It was the incorrect use of a term that’s actually quite serious, in my opinion. He chalked it up to a few radicals demanding political correctness, when I feel that the assertion of torture implies something much deeper.
So, he hasn’t gotten back to me and I haven’t followed up. I’ll leave him a message tomorrow, first thing.
Maybe I am a left wing nut.
As for the assertion that a porn star was held against her will, was beaten and marked beyond her desire and has nightmares about a shoot at Kink.com, I truly doubt it. Shoots at kink.com are shot far more professionally than anywhere I’ve ever been. You are questioned about your well being, both emotionally and physically, from the moment you walk through the door. Whether it’s your first shoot, or your 15th. If she had a bad day, or even an overwhelming one, I’d buy that. But as a model you’re constantly being checked on throughout the experience by numerous people. If there were any miscommunications, I’d totally blame it on the inability of the model to express herself either in the moment or in negotiations. If you’re uncomfortable with anything it’s your responsibility to let it be known.

This is a repost from Marky D Sade (rhymes with God. He’s my mod… and a little odd) from his bondage blog (MarkyDSade.com). I nicked it because it’s about ME, the Fabulous Mz Berlin. Y’all just sit back an enjoy.

This bondage blog loves Mz Berlin, as a fetish model, and as a friend. Ian Rath shot an amazing series with Mz Berlin for Fetish Nation (fetishnation.com).  It’s a bondage and medical fetish scene, with gyno exam kinkiness. Fetish Nation has amazing images and videos of the most beautiful fetish and bondage models out there.

Mz Berlin endures the mouth spreader, a zillion clamps and hemostats holding her perfect pink pussy open for examination, her big boobs are bound tight, and the Hitachi Magic Wand forces her to cum over and over.

Eden Wells, January Seraph, Mz Berlin, Anastasia Pierce, Charlotte Vale, and many many more await you. This is good stuff, people. Fetish Nation has been around for a decade, and they quality is amazing. Look at the image above. It’s amazing. Not just sexy, but beautiful.  Does it mean that Mz Berlin is a dirty slut? Yes. Yes it does.

Wow. Crazy busy. The beat goes on and on and on.

My head has been in overdrive pondering the ongoing drama in San Francisco about the comparison of bondage porn with real torture. It has my mind spinning and I feel a little sick.

Melissa Farley, a woman I’ve never met and have only heard referenced twice, in articles focusing on a community that I don’t live in. My only connection to her subject matter is working at a company that she hates because of her own neo-feminist crazy ideology.  So, why is it getting to me? She is not ripping the porno down from the shelves in West Hollywood. She is not asking me, personally, to leave my kinky life in order to stop being a victim.

It is one of her many wacky conclusions that really gets to me.  And I’m having a very emotional reaction to it. It truly bothers me. It’s the conclusion that bdsm porn is in any way related to real life torture. Torture, as in it’s conventional sense. (Go ahead and pull up the Wikipedia page. I’ll wait.)

While Miss Farley has tons of education on me, and has probably interacted with far more sex workers than I have, and might even have good intentions with her comparisons and book burnings, I fundamentally disagree with her based on personal experience. I have worked as a bdsm porn model and I have also been subjected to torture, under the standard definition, while under arrest overseas.  My experience was short, intense,  and life-changing. I’m not going to go into the particulars of what happened, but the experiences are totally different.

I am quite certain of that.

I have journals, photos and paperwork chronicling how I was feeling and what was happening to me the entire time I was having my non consensual experience, and obviously other people were aware of and responding to the situation so I know that happened. There’s also a matter of public record. I (and You with your magical internet powers!) have my journal, interviews and pictures chronicling my bdsm adventures. I can track how a particular shoot made me feel, and can tell you the effect it had on me emotionally and physically.  The comparison of the two makes me sick. My nausea comes from the fact that torture is totally, completely, under any definition a non consensual act.

I don’t understand why Melissa Farley, and, by default, Matt Smith feel that it’s fair to compare the same act committed under completely different circumstances. Having to saw your hand off because it’s in a bear trap and a mountain lion is coming up the hill at a mighty quick pace and giving a kidney to your sister are a lot alike. They’re both major surgery.  They are both dangerous. They both result in the loss of a body part. It’s the context that brings it together. It’s circumstance.

So, there’s my rant and rationale. I’ve tried to keep it short. It’s personal. It’s professional. It’s a gray area as far as that goes. I don’t normally discuss personal stuff. I’ve touched on the non consensual experience in a few different forums as I processed what consent meant to me.  It’s at the core of how I compartmentalize the experience and it really (in the parlance of our time) pisses me off when someone puts the two together without thought. Not necessarily without thinking of me, obviously, but the circumstances surrounding each activity. And the charge that one word can have. And, unfortunately, what the difference between edgy porno/art film and a war crime is.

L8TR

OMG! WTF?
KMFDM!!
LOL!!!

(thankyou, paperkin.)

Ha!
So, I just got off the phone with Matt Smith of the SF Weekly. He has agreed to open up a public dialogue with me regarding the whole bdsm porn/torture thing.
Kudos to him for humoring me.
Still working on a public debate. Perhaps he is afraid I will wear my evil red shoes.
I’m just fascinated by the whole current “torture” debate.
Can’t wait to see where this goes.

So, this dude- Matt Smith- at the SF Weekly, wrote an article about Kink.coms’ state funding for employee training. He basically said that Kink.com should not be eligible for funding because (take your seat!) they torture women! He used Melissa Farley’s rants as the foundation for this stance.
Let me state now that I don’t like Melissa Farley. She presumes to tell me how I feel because I’m in the adult industry. She also feels that she knows what is best for me in spite of how I feel. (A life devoid of documented nudity and sex for money.) That’s annoying.
So, I commented on Mr. Smiths’ article and left him a voice mail asking if he’d like to engage in a public debate or discussion on what he wrote.
Obviously, I have no interest in debating whether Kink.com deserves the money from the state, as it doesn’t impact me and I don’t have all the information.
I would, however, love to chat with Matt Smith about whether bdsm pornography depicts torture.
The gauntlet is thrown, but will he accept??
As Always
Mz B.

I just realized that I have over 600 comments on my blog! I wonder who the 666th will be?
I hope it’s Simone Kross, the Diabolical Domme.
That’s it.
Carry on.

And Chad Rock. And latex. And CaptiveMale.com.
Because at Captive Male, I reign supreme, dalek style.
Because latex and Dia Zerva are hot.
Because in front of Chad Rock, I am his superior.
He says that boys don’t cry repeatedly in our latest session together. I’ve brought along Dia for the ride and end up giving Chad to her because he won’t give me the ultimate sacrifice- his tears of his own volition.

But I get them anyways. Ha!

How do I break the unbreakable?
With my bare hands.
Decked out in custom Fierce Couture latex, I show Chad off to his new owner and test his limits of endurance, pain, performance under pressure and loyalty.
Good times!

It’s insanely hot here in Hollywood. Here is a photo of me, the Fabulous Mz Berlin, in a corset. 19″. I’m a rockstar.You should spend the rest of the day in front of a fan and your trusty computer, enjoying the wide variety of my smut available in my VOD  Fetish Theater and Clips4Sale store.

Toodles!

I, The Fabulous Mz Berlin, love the random photo post. Why? Because I like you. B-U-Y  my porn. Danke.

This makes me, the Fabulous Mz Berlin,  happy. Very happy.  Like, extremely happy. I think the next time Steen (Christine Kessler) and I get together and make video that I will do a tribute video.

In other news, I’ve been working like a fiend to get my web shit together. My dad was unable to make it out due to health issues, which is a bummer, but on the bright side I’m able to get a lot of work done this week. I need to get on my taxes. TMS dropped off TurboTax on the 14th.

In internet porno news, I’m currently tormenting my favorite gal- January Seraph on Fetish Nation. You should go check it out.

K. Gonna finish watching Barton Fink and then try to lure The Boy over so I can torment him.

We’ll see.

Seriously.
Ugh.
I , The Fabulous Mz Berlin, am just so good at it. My dad says that he is the world champion, but I’m sure that I would win in a showdown. (Actually, I would win, but I never finished filling out the registration)
I’ve been trying to blog just here, making this my central web place.
Twitter has been getting most of my free time. It’s hella addictive.
I need to clean my keyboard. Ice cream and Apple don’t mix.
Went to the Rose Bowl Flea Market with Miss Kessler and TMS. TMS and I got a globe. Miss Kessler got antlers.
I didn’t see any amazing vanities or articulated skeletons, but there’s always next month.
Shooting tomorrow with Miss Conduct and Miss Kessler. Pornographing is gonna go down. Miss Kessler has acquired a fucking machine. Look for video in my amazing and not always expanding Clip Store!
TMS and I had a come to Jesus talk (instigated by me) about my motivation issues. I haven’t really hit the ground running this year. I’ve done a lot more sauntering. Which is occasionally attractive, but not always productive.
I’m making more lists.
I bought a clip board.
I deleted all of my email.
Not sure if the last bit helped at all, but it certainly simplified things.
Yoga, Yoga, Yoga.
I have enough room, I have enough space, I have a rug, I have everything I need.
Goal- 5x/week, 1 video each time.
Just Do It!
The more you do, the more you do.
I love the way I feel after I’ve been consistently working out for a few weeks, but the first two weeks are horrible.
I should never have fallen off the wagon.
Hopefully I will finally get photos in my corset dress this week, though! My ass is big enough to fill it out.
I’m going to eat some cheese and crackers before I get in the shower.
L8TR

Yes. I would say that to Tom Petty.

Wow. Was letting CNN video run in the background while I ate easter candy and spent time with Varla. The billy bob canadian radio video started to play. What a major douche bag! I thought the intro was flattering and didn’t over emphasize billy bobs’ theatrical meanderings.
That’s it.
Over and out.

News is crazy today. News is always crazy. Woman attacked by polar bear. The Gay Storm is coming commercial. Red Cross report (that bit of information necessitated several phone calls and lots of yelling). Glenn Beck and gasoline. WTF?
(I have personally extended the offer to beat his ass. Bring him to me, and the beating will commence. Seriously. Go for it, left wing nuts.)
And pirates. Can’t forget about the pirates. The entire navy has gone nuts. How wild is that? Destroyers surrounding a lifeboat. Those Somalians are probably freaking the fuck out right about now. Their buddies weren’t able to make it and they’re probably up to their shins in shit. They look out the window and it’s Battleship. For real.
Got to admire their resolve, though.
The French are being brave in the region, but it’s gotten mixed results. From what I’ve read online and in Vanity Fair, though, the French hostages are all very well fed while in captivity. The Somalians think that French food is “ucky.”
In other news, I shot an awesome scene for Naughty America with Talon, directed by Christian X.
Christian was my scene partner in the critically acclaimed and commercial success that is “Strap Attack 10″.
I ate way too much ice cream this morning.
Drove all the way to the bank and realized that I didn’t have my ATM card.
Bought a rug.
It does, indeed, tie the room together.
If you only watch one documentary this year, make it “Forgiving Dr Mengele.” It’s available on netflix. If you only watch one documentary this year that’s available to watch instantly, watch “An Unreasonable Man.”
That’s an order, faithful reader.
K.
Gonna jet.