So, my new site is up. I did a big post about it, as I am doing a horrible job of staying off the grid, but it got lost when we were switching the servers or I just thought I posted it or something. So, here’s my new big announcement-

I have a new website! Go check it out! Built by the amazing Christine Kessler, it links to everything Mz related! This very blog will also be changing dramatically, and all of my posts will probably be archived. (Perhaps over on BecomingBerlin.com?)  My paysite- www.xxxfemmefatale.com will also be going live, like, really soon. I’m so ready to release some of my content

I’ll update as often as I can while building these three sites. Please take a moment and sign up for my newsletter on my Soon to Be Open XXXFemmeFatale.com or on my Awesome New Site!! Yay!!

Today was a lot of fun. I worked with Natali Demore for Smothered Slave.  She topped me twice, and I got to have my way with her once. Didn’t get to pull out my rope, but I got creative with lingerie, and I’ll leave it at that.  You’ll have to join her site to find out what our adventures were today. I got to play a cop, a bitchy roommate and a slutty student.  And how was your day at work? LOL

After work I was off to the bank, and then on to RiteAid and then home to work on the sites and visit with Roxy.  After she left I caught up on the news. I’m maniacal about Countown and Maddow.  Face The Nation is another thing I don’t miss. I was getting ready to watch last weeks and the sun had gone down and I went to close the window and it slammed on my thumb and mostly closed. It was horrible. I could neither scream nor pick up the window. It probably lasted about 30 seconds, but it felt like forever. In my mind it will always be purgatory.  I finally pushed really hard on the pane of glass and got my thumb free, but it had dents on either side. Right under the nail and on the opposite side. And a whole bunch of skin was gone. Uck. Sexy, right? Anyways, it fucking hurt so bad that I couldn’t cry at first.

Called Steen right afterwards.  I wasn’t quite sure what to do. I didn’t know if it was just a normal accident or if I should Do Something. She recomended frozen peas and ibuprofin. I compromised with frozen cherries and ice cream. And “Fringe.” My head was unable to handle Face The Nation. I try to be present for Bob.

I did get all of my paperwork in the mail today and am having lunch with a lawyer in a week or so to go over everything I need to file. I’m super stressed, but trying to focus on fact and moving forward. Paperwork and court is always stressful, but sometimes you have to be a grown up. My only regret is that I didn’t get legal paperwork in place in the first place.  I will do an update on the main legal page tonight, but plan to archive it with the site. I feel really positive about this filing and am trusting that the judicial system will grant me something reasonable. I just want all parties involved to stay reasonable. Including myself.

So, that’s that. Just about everything that’s going on.

Please check out my clip store and VOD. I make my movies for y’all!!

I will be posting here until I switch over, but stay tuned because it could be any moment!!

As Always

Mz B.

I’m going to be incommunicado for a bit. Building my site, getting priorities in order, dealing with legal issue #1, and dealing with legal issue #2.
New blog/site to be up soon.
Thanks everyone for their support in my personal matters.
I be back to moving at the speed of fabulocity soon. I promise.
As Always
Mz B.

Wow.

I’m totally floored by the events of the past week and over the weekend. I now have enough in my legal fund to cover the filing fees for my child custody revision petition. Or whatever it’s called. I am completely humbled and thankful for all of your letters of encouragement, your hard-earned cash and your empathy. So many fans and friends really came through for me when I needed them to.  This is a personal and time sensitive thing and the fast action of the community has been really inspirational.

I am going to send for documents I need to file tomorrow and will be paying the lawyer the remainder of the balance. I put the downpayment on my credit card last week and am so thankful that I don’t have to worry about coming up with the rest of the fees on the fly.  Thank y’all so much.The final amount is still to be determined, but I’m hoping that mediation will be all that’s needed.

I have spent most of today cleaning the house. I feel that in order to tackle such a tall order this week I have to be in a good mindset, and we all know how good it feels to have a house that is clean from top to bottom. I’ve been organizing, ironing, cleaning and throwing out stuff. I also have put a good bit of stuff aside for eBay! It feels good to be productive.

As an aside, I have gotten so many emails and will focus on returning each and every one later this week, as soon as I’ve worked out all of the legal paperwork. I have read everything that’s hit my inbox and I’d like to give a blanket “Thank You” here.

I should be on FetishChatLive later today, as well as some time tomorrow. As always, I’ll twitter when I go “live”.

As Always

Mz B.

Yes, folks, it’s true. I have given up procrastination. Next is smoking. I seriously need to quit.
Cleaned the house today. Did the dishes. Organized a bit. There will always be something left to do, but I feel rather accomplished. Tomorrow, floors, ironing and changing the sheets.
I’m also getting ready to move Marla and Varla into the same bathroom area. Two catboxes is pretty horrific. I need to go get a new covered box. Varla usually goes outside (unless she has the opportunity to go in the kittens’ box) so I’m hoping for the best.
It’s been a quiet but hectic week here. I’ll be on fetishchatlive.com tonight and will twitter when I’m about to go on!
xo
Mz B.

Just signing in now for FetishChatLive.
I got distracted, but ended up completing a big project.
Yay me!!
So, come get your tiny penis humiliated or talk to me about theoretical physics, or I can read to you from one of my favorite Vonnegut books or you can ask me about bondage, fetish or any of my modeling fetishes. If you’re really nice, I might dance around for you or show off my amazing rack. I’ve also been known to pull out the Hitachi from time to time.
Come stop by.
For real.
xo
Mz B.

Oh. Here’s a picture from my webcam, like, right this second.

Wow. What a crazy day.

I’ve updated my “Help M” page, if you’ve come to check up on that. And thank you, Catalina. xoxox

In other news, I’ll be going on FetishChatLive later this evening. I have only worked days and afternoons so far and wanted to give the night a try. Plus, it’s been a hectic day. I still have so much to do, but it will be nice to focus on work for a while. Especially work as fun as FetishChatLive.Com!! Hopefully some other fetish hotties will be at the studio so I can tie them up!! I need some tension relief! Ha!

I do feel more in control of things now, and I really feel a sense of solidarity with those who have communicated with me, via Twitter, email and phone.

Accck! Back to sexy bondage fetish vixen femme fatale Mz!! (My focus is sucking more than usual today.)

I’ll be making appearances on FetishChatLive tonight Saturday AND Sunday. I’ll twitter when I go on. (You can follow me @mzberlin) You can also have FetishChatLive send you a text or email when I go on. I usually go for afternoons, but might give evenings a go if tonight goes well! One never knows….

So, here is the link to my page on the site-

And next week I’m super busy working with January Seraph and _N_ on some videos with Kade, and later in the week I get to go play bondage games over at SmotheredSlave.com with Natali Demore. I also have several FetishChatLive dates set next week, but I’ll update as it gets closer. I also plan on updating my clip store very soon with exclusive footage of myself and Chad Rock!

Have a wonderful night. I hope to see you!!

As Always

Mz B.

Please visit my “help!” page (located on this blog) to read about my current personal problem. I’m sorry to even mention this on my blog, as I try to keep personal things private, but I really need the communities help. Any amount, any repost, anything will help. Just click anywhere on this post to be taken to the page describing what’s going on.
One Love-
Mz B.

Enjoy! And check out my clip store for more Mz goodness!!

I’ll be making another appearance on FetishChatLive.com today! Come by and visit with me. I’ll be on around 4 pm Hollywood time!!

And if you can’t make it but are craving some Mz Berlin style domination or submission, check out my Kinky Clip Store.

Here is an awesome shot by Steen for my upcoming website….

I had an amazing shoot last week with Mark Davis. John Fitgerald captured it on video and Steen was kind enough to capture frozen moments with her camera.

Well, today and yesterday have been very productive. I’ve gotten a lot of cleaning done, worked on my upcoming site and have scheduled myself for the rest of the month. Tomorrow I’m off to the dentist for two crowns. Two down, four to go. But it’s a third of the way there. I’ve been obsessed with getting my teeth fixed since I turned 18. I didn’t see a dentist at all before then, and was in bad shape. This is the final phase of my grand scheme dental plan, and it feels both good and tiring to be this close to the finish line.

I have a lot of appearances on FetishChatLive this month, and if you join you can recieve a text when ever I sign in! I’ll be sure to post here when I’m scheduled and I’ll try to at least twitter if it’s an unexpected play date. I had to swing by The Ivy Manor today and would’ve hopped on if I had remembered my lipstick. It’s so fun to chat with fans and fetishists, and the non kinky guys and gals are usually up for some education. Please check out FetishChatLive and if you’re a fetish model or actress who wants to be involved, lemme know! I totally pimped out Wolf Hudson today. (@wolfhudson on Twitter). I should be doing naughty things to him on cam within a week or so….

*evil laugh*

If you can’t wait util Mr. Hudson is available for me to lovingly torment via a live feed, go check out my work as a cruel Dominatrix  at The Twisted Factory. I’ve beated a lot of ass for CaptiveMale.com. This week I take Wild Bill for a spin, and I think he got a little more than he could handle. We had a fun time, though, and my bondage is coming along. I never needed any help with the verbal humiliation or strap on business, though! I beat Bill for giving Amber Rayne a hard time. I wonder if he’s learned his lesson….

My favorite scene of all time, with Chad Rock is also pretty rad. If you’re looking for me beating ass, Captive Male and Chantas Bitches are the places to go.

K. Gonna watch the news, play with the kitten, soothe the cat and clean the living room.

L8TR!!

Buy my porn! I made it for you!

After arriving in London and acclimating myself a bit to my surroundings, it was time to party!! Here are some pix of Vima and I on stage. We were captured by Josselin of HedonyDesign. Check him out!!

Want more kinky goodness? Check out my clip store!! I made it all for you!

I just spent the better part of an hour crafting a cute picture journal of my trip to London. Not only was it my birthday, but it was also my first successful trip overseas and to Europe. It was lovely, and life changing in a lot of ways.

And then FireFox went bonkers and then I lost my whole post and now I’m running out of juice on the laptop. Ugh. So, here goes nothing. Gonna try to recap quickly.

Before I go any farther, let me state that Tony Mitchell was my knight in shining armor the whole time I was in England I’m super grateful.

Day 1, I walked and walked and walked along the Thames and all through Windsor. I absolutely love the gardens and think they should charge to rent lounge chairs at any park. It was totally reasonable. Not so impressed with Buckingham Palace, but Westminster Abbey and the House of Parliament were Amazing. Saw the London Eye, took a photo, did not ride, got distracted by Dali. And so it goes.

I cannot wait to go back later this year. I’m going to try to criss cross the continent and take advantage of opportunities to travel as much as possible.

This update is going to be the longest ever. I’m going to break it up into evenings. Groovy?

Adios, for now, Amigos!!

Hey! It’s been a busy morning and it’s bound to be an interesting evening! I still have so much to catch up on with my blog, but I have to hurry up and go get in the shower and head over to The Ivy Manor to hop on a cam and entertain the masses! Come on over and chat with me. It’s free to join, and it’s a nominal fee to chat, and even cheaper if there are enough people and I can go into show mode! Ask me questions, I can make fun of your small penis,  you can tell me jokes, or sit with me, face to face via 2WayCam (no extra charge!!), and tell me your deepest darkest secrets.

And I always love bossing people around!

Here is a picture of me, by the lovely Christine Kessler, in the outfit I’ll be wearing. I won’t be in the nude, though! Not in free chat, anyways, and rarely in private. And I never take my bottoms off. (You’ll have to wait for my site to launch or visit Twisted Factory or Kink.Com or MyFetishDiary for that stuff at the moment. Or you could head over to my lovely little clip store. )  You have to impress me. But, just to tease you- here it is. Corset by Jeroen, of Bizarre Design. Amazing. He and Amy Crowder, of WaspCreations.com, are my favorite. Seriously.

Mz, 20" by Bizarre Design

I haven’t talked recently about KOD, which is sort of like Clips For Sale, only with all of Kink.com’s awesome shoots. Including all of my awesome shoots. All of my Hogtied.com shoots with Matt, my entire TrainingofO.com experience, my shoot for Waterbondage.com, WhippedAss.com, SexAndSubmission.com as well as my two amazing shoots with Princess Donna. My epic shoot with Lochai is also there.
Seriously.
Go check it out. And buy all of the Mz you can handle.

Click the link, then run a search for Berlin. It’s easy peasy.
Buy my porn. I made it for you.
xo
Mz B.

At The Factory I reign supreme. Well, most of the time. At least at CaptiveMale.com! Wild Bill has been giving some of my favorite ladies problems, and he has to pay! I tie him up tight, verbally abuse him as only I can, take full advantage of him in his helpless position and then sodomize him! Yay for sodomy! You can check out the trailer and reviews by clicking anywhere in this blog post!!

Had a wonderful day today! Got up early, ran late to set, got done early and had an amazing time with Mark Davis, who has worked with me on SexAndSubmission.com for Kink.com. We got to get down without rope or whips today and it was amazing. I’m still a bit spun. I’m very excited about the launch of my paysite. Shooting with all of my favorite people in order to get content has been such an experience in and of itself.

Although the shoot today was all about me being a femme fatale being a completely dirty girl, it was certainly very D/s based. I’ve never interacted with Mr. Davis any other way. I reflected on that afterwards. I suppose I could’ve been mouthier or played a character or whatever, but there was a reason it wasn’t scripted.

I believe that we got some amazing footage and intense photos and can’t wait to see both. I went from glam to smeared eyeliner in two seconds. There were no bdsm accessories but it was just as intense as SAS. Having TMS and Steen right there was awesome and a little awkward, but that’s why I wanted Mr. Davis there so I could just focus on him.

Directing and subbing at the same time is really hard. Not as hard as subbing and topping at the same time, but difficult. All I can really do is put the best people I know together at the same time and then go with it. Working with people I really like, trust and that know what they’re doing is my formula and I think that it’s working.

And in case I haven’t mentioned it before, Mark Davis is my favorite dude porn star ever. Ridiculous. I’m not sure if it’s the accent or that he’s confident enough to pick me up by the throat. Either way, I hope I can get him a lot for the site. Because I am a twisted individual, I can’t wait until I can get him to fuck my friends for my site.

Steen and TMS both said that they didn’t perv out at all during the shoot, which sort of dissapointed me. I’ve totally perved out at shoots. I’ve perved out with other people at shoots.  Do I get a gold star for that? Isn’t that why you’re reading this blog? Because I perv out? And will talk about it, actually do it and take photos/videos of it?  Talk to me!! Why are you here, Faithful Reader? Am I funny, am I hot, do you like the LOLCats? I certainly haven’t been putting up enough free porno lately, and haven’t been very good about updating my Clip Store. I guess I’m just anticipating putting all the pieces in place for my site.

K. Gonna recoup so I can go beat the boys that are bad with Nikki Hunter in the morning. My life, on the whole, is pretty bad ass.

Another FetishChatLive.com date!!

I’ll be on today from approx. 4 pm West Coast Time until I’m over it. Stop on in (it’s free to sign up!) and say “Hello!” It’s only my second day!
If you’ve ever wanted to chat with me, have me boss you around or argue about whether tickling is sexy or not, here is your chance! I can also berate your tiny penis, tell you how to masturbate, tell you what a dirty boy you are or simply talk about myself and my awesome boobs. The power is in your hands!
Come play with me!!

So, after my awesome time visiting with fans both new and old on FetishChatLive.com, TMS and I ran out to Nica Noelles’ house to pick up our new kitten. On the way out we tried to think of names, and we both liked Rose Tyler and The Doctor since we’re on a Dr Who kick right now.  Then I remembered Marla Singer from Fight Club, who is just as much of a bad ass charachter as Varla in Faster Pussycat, Kill, Kill. I ran a vote on my Twitter last night (follow me!!! @mzberlin) and Marla won by a mile over Rose. So, that was my lovely evening. Marla seems to be settling in, but Varla is still a tad uncomfortable.  And by uncomfortable I mean totally fucking pissed. 15lbs of pissed Maine Coon. She has way more bark than bite, though and has been hiding, mostly. Marla is attached at the hip, though. She spent most of her first evening here snuggled under TMS’s shirt and they snuggled in bed, too. Once I got in there, I stole her and then we spooned. She is a total cuddle bunny, which I love. She is also probably the most verbal cat I’ve ever met. She loves to chat. TMS and I think she may be part bat, and that the squeaks are her sonar.

Dammit! Marla just peed on the couch! WTF?? BRB.

Varla has been hovering in the kitty/utility room. But she wasn’t even in the house when Marla peed. WTF?

Moving right along, I’ve been setting up shoots left and right. I’ve been dealing with the SF Weekly thing on a personal level and will probably go into more detail later.

I would like to say one thing, though. I never, ever gave Matt Smith the permission to use my name, nor did I give him my full name. He asked for it repeatedly and I told him that I did not want it in the story. Both he and his editor have stated that they did not have to honor such a “request”, but Matt told me he wouldn’t. I even explained that having that information out there would make me feel unsafe, and that I didn’t understand how personal biographical information outside of my experience with bdsm or my nonconsensual experience were relevant to the topic at hand. (Whether BDSM is Torture, blah blah.)

But back to happier things, like all of the fun stuff I have lined up for this week. Tomorrow is FetishChatLive.com, of course, and Friday I have a doctors appointment. Saturday I’m directing my first b/g. Hopefully. Finally. Third times a charm, right??!!

Then, on Sunday I’m working with Venus Girls. Which means I get to see Nikki Hunter! Yay! She does amazing makeup and always makes me feel sexy. The Venus Girls team is so awesome and the shoots are always fun. I can’t wait!!

Next week is a really long one, too. I’m shooting every day but Monday. It’s good, though. Every shoot means that my website has more and more content, which makes me feel accomplished. I’m very excited about the launch of my paysite, as well as focusing on performing and teaching classes.

So, go buy my porn. Links are to the left. (Your left.) It’s all there. Kinky, Clips, Non Kinky, g/g, b/g, bondage….

L8TR